Author Archives: suziecreamcheese

Love in a bundle of fur

Posted on June 29, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

Max was many things, but he was not much of a cuddler.   He loved people, but he was happy to have some distance between himself and anyone but a few.   He would put his head on my lap, push himself … Continue reading →

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Sleep deprived but not love deprived

Posted on June 27, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

I really didn’t want to love this little terror.  I didn’t want to open myself up to this pain, this searing, unending pain, this loss that doesn’t get better with time, not again.  And then they put him in my … Continue reading →

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Saying hello without saying goodbye

Posted on June 22, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

Almost ten weeks ago, we let Max go.   Tomorrow we bring home Maverick. I’m still grieving.   I still look for Max everywhere, in the family room on his rug, in the kitchen in front of the sink, where he always … Continue reading →

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And he’s beautiful

Posted on June 8, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

Max will always be first – in my life, in my heart, in my soul. He will always be my beautiful boy, the one I promised I would never leave. He didn’t like to share, his toys, his food, his … Continue reading →

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His name is Maverick

Posted on June 5, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

And he’ll be coming home in a few weeks. My empty, aching heart spoke last week, asked a friend where she got her dog.  She gave me the name of the breeder, I called and he has a litter. We … Continue reading →

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When the time is right

Posted on June 1, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

When we decided to get a puppy, everything came together in a matter of days.   We brought Max home two weeks after deciding we needed a Golden Retriever in our lives. Ten years, 8 months and 9 days later, Max … Continue reading →

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A month ago

Posted on May 14, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

But it seems like yesterday, and a lifetime, all at the same time. I’ve learned that I have amazing friends.   I’ve learned that grief has no limits, that tears don’t stop, that the simple act of breathing is enough to … Continue reading →

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Two weeks

Posted on May 2, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

and I still look for you when I get home I still find myself thinking, “I don’t need to eat all this chicken, I should save some for Max.”   I called to you to day to come get cheese.   I … Continue reading →

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He’s home

Posted on April 28, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

We picked up Max’s ashes this morning.   I expected to fall completely apart – that happens on a regular basis these days.    Strangely,  I didn’t.   I cried in the car, as Bear held the bag with the two boxes … Continue reading →

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One week

Posted on April 24, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

And my heart is still in pieces. One week has passed and it hurts more now than it did the night you left.    I look for your sweet face, I sniff the air trying to catch your scent, I … Continue reading →

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