Author Archives: suziecreamcheese

Just when you think you’re doing okay

Posted on July 11, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

Reality bites you in the butt. Or in the back, in my case. After two days of chest muscle spasms and a pain in my back that wouldn’t quit, I gave in, called my neighbor at 10:30 last night, and … Continue reading →

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It’s a MAC machine around here

Posted on July 9, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

I’ve never had an ATM card, debit card, whatever. I’ve never needed one. Bear went to the bank every week, with his MAC card, and came home with money – which we pronounced “Mun-ay” because of a guy who worked … Continue reading →

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When a month feels like a minute

Posted on June 23, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

Things no one tells you: Time gets all weird. A month feels like both an eternity, and a minute, all at once You lose your identlty. People think of you and your spouse as a couple, but you are in … Continue reading →

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Signs, rings and baby deer

Posted on June 19, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

Yes, I’m aware they’re called fawns. I will continue to call them baby deer, the same way I call calves baby cows. 🙂 Last week I asked Mark to please send me a sign and to please make it something … Continue reading →

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One step at a time

Posted on June 6, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

I just bought a toaster oven/air fryer. It’s okay, I used my Amazon points so it didn’t cost anything. I never buy anything big like that without asking Bear about it. So I asked him I know he’d say “buy … Continue reading →

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The wall of numbness

Posted on May 25, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

It’s strange – well, most things are the past couple of weeks – I know what I have to do, I make a list and I start out with good intentions. I get a couple of things done, today I … Continue reading →

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Grief begins

Posted on May 22, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

I thought I knew grief. I’ve lost so many people in my life, one of the joys of a big family is having a lot of people to love, and one of the worst parts is having a lot of … Continue reading →

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Heaven is waiting

Posted on May 15, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

The Bear is going home. The battle is almost over, the party is being prepared in Heaven. The Princess is broken and filled with grief – and gratitude, for 20 years of love and caring. Was it always easy? No, … Continue reading →

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Answered prayers

Posted on April 24, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

Bear lost his voice when this all started. He can talk but it’s a whisper and sometimes difficult. Lately it’s been better, raspy, but a voice. Today he got up and said, “how’s the weather?” I said, “I haven’t been … Continue reading →

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Why am I blogging?

Posted on April 20, 2026 by suziecreamcheese

One guess. I should be grading. Bleah Also, I was going to CVS and Tarjay but then I got a call that our neighbor is gonna come up with his Mennonite friends to see about putting up a railing on … Continue reading →

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