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What if it was your father?
What if someone went to the media and said that your father molested them 40 years ago? Would you automatically believe the “survivor?” If there was no evidence, not a single person who could corroborate the accusation, would you still … Continue reading
I want to start a blog
That tells about the times Mom loses her shit and then feels bad about it. So today, after a great deal of exercise and stimulation, Maverick decided to run away from me and totally forget that he actually does know … Continue reading
Forgiveness
I always think of forgiveness at this time of year. September 11th was a day that saw the world change for so many of us. I grew up in an era when we didn’t think about making America great, it … Continue reading
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Strength
I used to be the strong one, the one who could handle anything life threw at me. I was, and still am, the one no one in my family will take on, head on, although they still try to play … Continue reading
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Tears flowing
Today wasn’t a great day I’m not a morning person. Wandering the field while puppy chews sticks and eats grass and taking stones out of his mouth, and leaves out of his mouth, and waiting for him to be motivated … Continue reading
Don’t tell me
Not to cry It’s only been 3 months don’t tell me he’s waiting for me I don’t want him waiting for me in your heaven, I want him on my front porch Don’t tell me I should be better because … Continue reading
Counting Mondays
11 Mondays 11 weeks ago, we let you go. Much has changed in those 11 weeks. And every Monday, at 8:30, time stops, and I see your sweet face, and I feel your fur under my hands, and I whisper … Continue reading
Love in a bundle of fur
Max was many things, but he was not much of a cuddler. He loved people, but he was happy to have some distance between himself and anyone but a few. He would put his head on my lap, push himself … Continue reading
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Sleep deprived but not love deprived
I really didn’t want to love this little terror. I didn’t want to open myself up to this pain, this searing, unending pain, this loss that doesn’t get better with time, not again. And then they put him in my … Continue reading
Saying hello without saying goodbye
Almost ten weeks ago, we let Max go. Tomorrow we bring home Maverick. I’m still grieving. I still look for Max everywhere, in the family room on his rug, in the kitchen in front of the sink, where he always … Continue reading
