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It’s a MAC machine around here
I’ve never had an ATM card, debit card, whatever. I’ve never needed one. Bear went to the bank every week, with his MAC card, and came home with money – which we pronounced “Mun-ay” because of a guy who worked … Continue reading
Signs, rings and baby deer
Yes, I’m aware they’re called fawns. I will continue to call them baby deer, the same way I call calves baby cows. 🙂 Last week I asked Mark to please send me a sign and to please make it something … Continue reading
Heaven is waiting
The Bear is going home. The battle is almost over, the party is being prepared in Heaven. The Princess is broken and filled with grief – and gratitude, for 20 years of love and caring. Was it always easy? No, … Continue reading
Praying for strength
I rarely want time to move faster, days to end, years to go by. I plan for tomorrow but much further out and I’m useless. Now, however, I want it to be Wednesday. I’ll be back home on Wednesday. Bear … Continue reading
I suppose things could be worse
I’m heading to NY this weekend. Not for vacation, not because I want to, but because there’s a funeral I have to attend. I knew I’d have to do this someday, I just didn’t want it to be so soon. … Continue reading
Neutering – or “it’s a choice”
https://www.akcchf.org/educational-resources/library/articles/an-update-on-the-health.html https://www.ucdavis.edu/news/when-should-you-neuter-your-dog-avoid-health-risks https://www.veterinary-practice.com/article/effects-of-neutering-on-undesirable-behaviours-in-dogs About 15 years ago, we got a Golden Retriever. Knowing next to nothing about dogs, and totally nothing about Goldens except that my brother in law had one, and that dog hated kids – since I’m not … Continue reading
He knocked me down the first time we met
And I laughed and laughed. He was a Yellow Lab, I met him when he was 8 months or so old, just been rescued by my BFF a few days earlier. I came into her house, all “OH MY GOD, … Continue reading
In the blink of an eye
a year went by Last year, I was so deeply mourning Max, so lost in grief that I thought I’d never smile again. And a few miles down the road, you were being born. A little red ball of fur, … Continue reading
Looking back and looking forward
A year ago, I was sleeping on the sofa, sleeping on the floor beside Max, barely sleeping, listening to him breathe, praying for one more week, one more day, one more ride in the car, one more Golden smile, one … Continue reading
Struggling
It’s been almost a year, and every minute that brings me closer to that anniversary is a minute filled with shards of glass in my heart. I knew, from the moment I heard that horrible word, “hemangiosarcoma,” that my life … Continue reading
Suziecreamcheese Sings the Blues 
