Suziecreamcheese Sings the Blues

The Christmas hype has begun.   It’s amusing, in a way, to see the children I used to buy so much stuff for, now doing the same for their kids.  These are the kids who, once they reached the age where it was sort of expected that they would do something for the people who had provided them with gifts, and memories, and wonderful holidays, for years.   For the most part, they didn’t choose to reciprocate, or they ran to Walmart and bought some junk.   

They’re still running to Walmart and buying junk – standing in line for hours and spending money they don’t have on junk the kids won’t want a couple months from now.  But try telling them that! Whooooeeeeee the cussin out you’ll get.  

I really want my other blog to be my primary blog and I have no idea why it won’t let me do that.   Very confusing

I got a surprise, sort of, today – I read back over the last 6 or 8 posts I’ve written and holy cow, what a Debbie Downer I’ve become!
So today ……….something happy.
Max and I took our usual mile walk yesterday, and happily, his best friend was home. He got to play with Keno, a 2 year old Husky, for over an hour. They do the bitey face game, and the wrestling game, and the chase each other game. He was one tired – and very happy – boy.

(Okay, why did this person sit down next to me and start talking?)

So today’s plan is to go home, have lunch, get a nap, take a walk, and come back to school. I get to teach adjusting entries. It’s very amusing to watch the confusion, and very rewarding to watch the lights go on over their heads. 🙂

AND……..the Orioles clinched! I think that’s the term, anyway, my husband is very happy about it!

I didn’t know the planes had hit the World Trade Center till after I went on the computer that morning. We never turned the tv on till after lunch, so we didn’t see the news that morning. I went online to talk to my friend, the man I had fallen in love with, although neither of us realized it at the time. He told me, and the images were there on the screen – the plane hitting the tower, and then the second plane hitting, and the news of the Pentagon being hit, and the plane in the field in Pennsylvania.

I cried. I couldn’t believe this was happening to my home, that there were people in the world who hated us so much that they would do such a horrible thing – and celebrate it as a victory of some sort. How could they hate us, when they didn’t even know us? How could people think so badly of a country that always had seemed so full of joy, so big, so confident, so filled with light? I couldn’t make sense of it.

I didn’t realize how badly shaken I was till I was driving to school a few weeks later, and a plane flew overhead -circling to land at the airport. I had to pull over. I was shaking and screaming “GO AWAY!”

And I cried – again.

I’ve given them enough tears. I didn’t lose my family – that day. I didn’t lose any friends. I’m very grateful for that.

I’ve been aggravated all week by things I can’t control.   So here’s the thing.  I can accept that I can’t change them………..or I can keep on being annoyed.   I’m trying really hard to accept………..and ignore………what I can’t change.

I can’t stop stores from putting out Christmas stuff before Thanksgiving – but I can refuse to decorate my home, or do any shopping, or talk about Christmas, or make plans …………until I’m ready.  I can unsubscribe from facebook friends who start talking about it before I want to hear about it.

I can’t control the weather.  I can stop watching the news more than once a day, I can ignore dire predictions of a winter to end all winters (Oh, my GOD, we’re all GONNA DIE!).  

I can’t control the stupidity on other forums I read.  But I don’t have to respond.   

Maybe if I can remember that it’s not up to me, I won’t get so pissed off when people don’t do what I think they should.