Author Archives: suziecreamcheese

Memories and melancholy

Posted on October 1, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

It’s been almost 11 years since my mother died.    There are parts of that night that I don’t remember.   I remember waking up to pee, and the phone ringing.   We didn’t have a phone upstairs so I … Continue reading →

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Anger

Posted on September 24, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

I’ve been thinking about anger a lot the past couple of weeks. There are many quotes about anger – Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which … Continue reading →

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Stuck

Posted on September 2, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

I would like the words to flow from the pen.   I can see the pen floating across the paper, making wonderful, beautiful, marks, flowing letters, scrolling across the page effortlessly, forming words and symbols, music and art.   The … Continue reading →

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Flaring and swearing

Posted on August 30, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

I’ve heard it said over and over, hate steals energy, anger steals energy,  Here’s some energy for you, assholes I am so tired of hurting.  I hate this fucking affliction.   I thought it was over, I thought it was … Continue reading →

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Sadness and random thoughts

Posted on August 13, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

That diet is not working, dear.   You look fat as hell, fatter than before.   And the empire look to emphasize the barely visible baby bump makes you look frumpy wouldn’t look me in the eye – yeah, but … Continue reading →

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Bully for me

Posted on August 12, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

Back in May, a “friend” accused me of being a bully.   She did this in a public forum, then locked me out – effectively cutting off any chance of me defending myself.   For the record, I did NOT … Continue reading →

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I can do this

Posted on August 7, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

I am strong enough My heart is in pieces but I can do this Daisy – the essence of love – is failing And her mom wants her to go home at a place of peace, and joy, and love. … Continue reading →

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Rainy days and gloomies

Posted on August 6, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

This is the kind of day that makes me melancholy.   Rainy, cold, dark.  There is little joy in this day.  I’m reminded of all the sadness that my friends are experiencing right now, all the little hurts and big … Continue reading →

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And then came Daisy

Posted on August 6, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

One day I wandered into a special section of the Golden Retriever forum.   It’s call “Fur Dawgees onlee” and it’s just a wonderful, loving, joyful, fun place on a forum that is sometimes a bit stuffy and has some … Continue reading →

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and out of nowhere

Posted on July 17, 2013 by suziecreamcheese

a chondritis flare Evil.  Pure evil.   It lets you think you’re finally over it, finally cured, and then bam, the axe to the heart.   I’m trying not to be depressed and upset, that just makes it worse.    It’s … Continue reading →

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