Category Archives: dogs

His name is Maverick

Posted on June 5, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

And he’ll be coming home in a few weeks. My empty, aching heart spoke last week, asked a friend where she got her dog.  She gave me the name of the breeder, I called and he has a litter. We … Continue reading →

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When the time is right

Posted on June 1, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

When we decided to get a puppy, everything came together in a matter of days.   We brought Max home two weeks after deciding we needed a Golden Retriever in our lives. Ten years, 8 months and 9 days later, Max … Continue reading →

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A month ago

Posted on May 14, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

But it seems like yesterday, and a lifetime, all at the same time. I’ve learned that I have amazing friends.   I’ve learned that grief has no limits, that tears don’t stop, that the simple act of breathing is enough to … Continue reading →

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Two weeks

Posted on May 2, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

and I still look for you when I get home I still find myself thinking, “I don’t need to eat all this chicken, I should save some for Max.”   I called to you to day to come get cheese.   I … Continue reading →

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One week

Posted on April 24, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

And my heart is still in pieces. One week has passed and it hurts more now than it did the night you left.    I look for your sweet face, I sniff the air trying to catch your scent, I … Continue reading →

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without you

Posted on April 19, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

You made me whole Bear took the broken pieces of my heart and held them tight till they were healed.   He put me back together when all the world seemed determined to break me apart and keep me broken. For … Continue reading →

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Worry, tears, and still praying

Posted on April 14, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

I fear the end is near.    My Max, my precious angel, is not acting at all like himself.   He’s restless, and panting, and even after a pain pill, he just won’t settle.   He has little interest in food, except … Continue reading →

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Trying to believe in miracles

Posted on April 12, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

Yesterday, Max was feeling the effects of chemo.    He was tired, no appetite, little joy.   This morning, it seemed the same.   And then I mentioned a walk, and a ride, and suddenly his breakfast seemed marvelous and necessary and … Continue reading →

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Struggling

Posted on March 24, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

Wondering if we’re doing the right things, wondering how Max really is, wondering if something is already inside him that we can’t see Wondering if this is his last snowstorm (If so, it was a good one and he enjoyed … Continue reading →

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I’m in Egypt

Posted on March 19, 2018 by suziecreamcheese

In the State of Denial Well.   Tomorrow – actually today – Max has his first chemo.   Today, he initiated play with a 10 month old puppy at the park.   When we got home, he helped Dad rake leaves – which … Continue reading →

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