Back in May, a “friend” accused me of being a bully.   She did this in a public forum, then locked me out – effectively cutting off any chance of me defending myself.   For the record, I did NOT bully this woman.   EVER.   I was endlessly amused by her self importance, but I did NOT bully her.   EVER.   

I’m having a very hard time letting this go.  We have friends in common.   None of them stepped up and defended me.   I think that bothers me almost as much as her accusing me – that no one said that she was wrong, that she should stop, that SHE was the bully.   

We’ll be returning to work soon and I find myself on one hand hoping I run into her, and on the other hand praying I don’t.  I’ve been badly hurt by all this.  I was not the popular kid in school, I was the one who never got chosen for teams, who was teased because of my clothes, my bad teeth, my parents’ lack of education, etc.   I was not a pretty child, at least not according to my classmates.   I had only brains going for me, and being a smart girl wasn’t the best thing to be when I was growing up.  I know bullying.  It isn’t something I would do to anyone.   Gentle fun poked, yes, but not ever anything hurtful.   It isn’t in me to be intentionally hurtful without great provocation.  

I want one thing from her.   I want an apology, in the same forum in which she accused me.   And then I never want to see her face again.